the worst best times of your life

Yesterday was my birthday, I know right, the worst, best day for me. All I ever want is my birthday to be the best day of the year. That has been really hard to accomplish for the past couple of years. Not only is it a day to remember those that lost a life 8 years ago but two years ago A close friend of mine had her dear husband pass away, and I learned today a new friend of mine had her husband pass away too yesterday. I always tell everyone that my birthday is cursed and I stand by that today. Why do days of happy celebration have to have so many bad memories. It makes me think, for every good memory there could be a horrile one going on right beside you or down the hall or across the world. This day has most deffinitly helped me become a stronger more willing person. I know that there may be sad times in life but it is the good ones that help us get through everything. Just one smile on your face changes somebodys day. A simple kind act has a big impact on people. I am so greatful for those people in my life that are there for me and try to help me through the 24 hours without crying, with thier big smiles and kind advice for me. I am sad to say this was not one of the years I could keep back the tears. I feel so selfish sometimes though because I find myself not always crying for those of loss but for myself and how my day isn't going as planned.But it is these people and these trials that make me who I am today. I just want to say thank you to those of you who care about me. The big or the little smiles help me so much, excpecially on this day.